i am totally broken down.. not understaning why.. so much of pain i am going thru both in my heart and body.. my stomach is damn painful.. my injury that i jus had on my upper hip is killing.. and my ulcers are hurting.. gettting scolded by ur own dad feels terrible.. getting called hopeless.. feels terrible.. anyone reading this entry.. never ever call anyone hopeless for doing something wrong.. it realli hurts alot.. pls pls never call anyone hopeless or useless..

Time and time again.. loving you isnt the easiest thing to do.. but i realli put in alot of effort to love you.. i noe you and i can never be together.. its ntg i can do.. so many reasons why u and i noe.. but trust me.. you realli taught me wad is love.. why love shouldnt be taken for granted.. i am realli not sure why you and i are distant apart.. in total for the past three days i only spend four hours plus wit you.. haiz.. i hope u don forget the way i treat u or touch u when u decide to leave one day..

* MY LOVE IS TRUE.. MY WORDS ARE TRUE.. MY TEARS ARE TRUE..*

*Sadness + pain = Dinesh's best friend*

* I miss YOU and That fucking bastard big big time*

hmmmm.. came online specially to do two stuff.. update blog.. talk to my loved one, muffin..

past weeks were rather packed.. and tiring.. hmmm.. school.. jus started.. three weeks into lessons.. and i no nuts about ACDA!! siao liao la.. =x Most of my lecturers are females.. hmmm.. Especially having Mdm Tan Ai Leng as my Em3 lecturer is the best thing that happen to me this semester.. I must be crazy if i mean wad i jus type the previous sentence.. She is the worst lecturer one can have... Crazy Old Wimp.. OMFG!!! she takes two hours to go through three questions.. most of the time.. she will talk about students not coming to class.. students robbing bank.. and everything else.. she makes Maths the MOST BORING MODULE this semester..

It has been happening this semester... I joined Polymipics playing Floor ball.. which I eventually lost in the first round.. so sad.. hahhaa.. but it was nice to feel the experience to play some sports in poly.. brings back secondary school memory.. hahahaa.. jus today.. i played Street Soccer tournament.. eventually winning 4-1 and we move up to the quarter finals.. hmmm.. a bit Anxious to play the next match.. bcos we are playing wit a ICS ( Indian Cultural Society) team.. Since my team are Anti - ICS playing them will surely spark some trouble la.. hopefully we can win.. hahaha..

Deepavali jus ended... It was jus like any other year.. not so happening... but got to see most of my cousins... talkative aunties.. and naughty uncles.. hmmm... didnt had a big collection of hongbaos this year.. one thing i hated in this year deepavali is that i realli had to miss my Muffin F*&@^#($ big time.. i was emo for a few days.. missing her but not telling anyone.. i suppose not even her.. maybe after readint this entry she will noe.. hmm... i jad to also visit NUH wit my uncle on one of those days.. as he keep eating everything and had diarrhoea like 12 times in a day.. so we went to get his stomach treated.. hmmm

soon enough muffin and i will be opening a booth at Convention centre.. to sell some stuff.. hopefully alot of people will be interested in wad we are selling and we can make big profit.. make the fengshui blow at us.. hahaha..

i guess for now.. thats about it.. hopefully i will blog soon..

* When was the last time you realli miss me.?? Cos i realli do right now!!!!!!! *

I HAVE BEEN REDUCED TO A HUGE PUDDLE OF TOFU MASH, THUS THE LACK OF UPDATES. IN CASE YOU PEOPLE SEE ME ON THE STREET OR ELSE WHERE, TAKE CAUTION, NOT, TO STEP ON ME.

YOURS SINCERELY,
DINESH THEVAR
AKA
SMELLY TOFU