well.. finally have moi off today and ya.. i went out to town.. hmm.. not realli in a good mood. stupid singapore.. find where also cannot find the HL white milk small packet.. jus now at suntec seven eleven don have.. jurong point seven eleven do have.. the shop below moi house also don have.. damn sucks sia.. irritated..

hmmm... well.. i realli have to earn money.. cos.. i wan to do alot of things.. haix.. but working like one month cant do much for me.. haix.. i wan buy new handphone cos.. moi fone has spoiled.. haix.. Dad say wan pay for me.. but i don wan la... i prefer to buy moiself.. hmmm..

Today at suntec... bought durian puffs wit mummy.. the durian puffs are realli very very nice.. hmm.. real good stuff... hmm.. went to walk at town.. walk walk and walk.. and ya.. as usual nothing caught moi attention.. to buy for moiself..

well.. as i was coming home i was thinking hard and i realised.. i am realli not even close to good guy.. well... maybe cos.. moi confidence is slowly decreasing.. i don noe.. i realli wanna make ppl cheerful.. luff.. do nonsense and crap to make others luff their ass off.. but i am become more and more of a boring person.. talk a while.. later.. keep quiet.. like realli aint me.. but i don noe why i am like that these days.. then when i feel like doing something in the past.. within few seconds of thought.. i will do it.. now.. keep thinking for.. at least like half an hour.. then pluck up courage to do something..

i realli have no idea of why am i like that... no point haixing all the time..but realli feel so sick and weak about moiself.. this may be a little stupid and idoitic.. i look at the mirror always i tell moiself.. i look good.. now.. i see.. keep feeling there are so many things that don make me look good. vain..?? no la asshole.. i don noe how to say out the feeling la..

tmr.. gonna rot at home.. aint complaining.. U have to live ur life too.. u have ur own frens.. well.. as usual. i shall be a loner for the day.. unless any of moi brothers find me.. NITEX PPL!!!

it may make me tear.. if u leave me one day..!!! option isnt given to me!!!