its been long since i last blogged.. working.. and studying.. and was sick a few days.. even up to now... haix.. this is going to be a sad entry.. so.. if u don like one.. u can buzz off from here.. cos theres no way i can write or tell it to firstly.. i hope no one will get hurt and sorry.. i use to think. being wit a person u realli love will make the person as happy as u are when u are wit the person.. but i suppose.. it is wrong.. i realised the meaning of breathing space in recent times.. well.. Its nothing i can do or say anything since the love is only one sided.. but no matter what i get eg. beaten up or scolded or even shouted at in public, i suppose.. i will still smile and be wit u as caring as i can... cos i have openly declared moi love for U.. and alot of people noe it too..

nowadays.. i am always alone.. hoping to hear from U... hoping u are fine.. even though u are not moi gf.. well.. comparing me to others may prove a point in some way... but.. i can say the one u compare me to will be different... i cant explain the details cos i don noe how to.. haiz.. maybe cos.. like wad u say.. i tend to take things seriously.. u think so..?? maybe.. if it is concerned abt U..

I keep having headache... well cos i don have enough sleep.. i have to resort to stuff that i nv once thought i have to do.. it realli takes two hands to clap.. one alone cant do much.. and jus as wad i use to do when i miss U terribly.. now i still do the same.. but not wanting u to noe...

I realli have no choice that i have to write here cos.. i have no where.. and i realli cant take it.. hope reading this won make anyone upset and even drift further from me... but all i can say.... Its was nv once ur fault.. from the start till now... thinking hard and well enuff.. i guess and prefer to take all at moi faults cos.. U are realli a gift.. not a present but a gift from God to earth.. But.. at the ssame time.. i am jus not lucky enuff..

No matter wad i do or wad u do... U will always be well treasured kept deep in moi heart and nv will i let u go cos.. i noe U are the prefect one for me.. and i have moi true love jus for U... but utterly sadly.. moi true love was never once mine.. will it be mine today..?? i have no idea.. All i can do.. is to wish U the best for everything and make sure u are safe and happy.. and to be always there even before u call for me.. and smile to U everytime i am wit U.. and treasure every single second wit U.. but yet when i am all alone at home.. i jus close moi door and cry in moi corner of moi room thinking Of U.. and missing U badly..

*Nun woonei yeapolutun kadalipain moi uyirai vida naisipain an kadalehx*

NEVER WILL I WALK OUT OF UR LIFE!!! PLS DON WALK OUT FROM MINE!!