It was common test of EG2... well.. after good practice.. and wit confidence.. i did the paper.. think can make it la.. i hope for eighty.. hope don get lesser than that.. i was still thinking abt meeting mummy today.. a few days didnt meet her.. i was happy la.. finally can go out wit her.. and its like jus me and her... thanks MUMMY!!!!

suppose to meet her at 2 plus.. but dinesh the excited boy.. started to wait for her arrival since like 1245.. then while waiting.. so many things went thru moi mind.. but i jus tell moiself.. i wan this day to be happy for the both of us..

finally it was 2 plus. and.. we met.. mummy was looking so nice and gorgeous in her outfit today.. i am not flattering her la.. but she realli made me think " whoa! u are realli pretty today da" inside moi heart.. then suprisingly.. she wanted to eat chocolates.. and ya.. we bought la... haha..

off we went to city hall... and bought her Fila bag.. she carry that bag more got the rich feeling.. like she is the only daughter of a family who stays in a four storey house.. also bought a shirt la.. don worry mummy.. u bought it for me for now only... then we meet to orchard and went to see kelly.. haha.. such a crazy girl.. and we met shu yun also... ahaha.. another mad girl.. haha.. but no one can be compared to the mor xraziest girl.. moi very own fren FIFI!!! hahah!!

after that.. we went to bugis.. haha.. then it was raining.. i went to find that crazy girl fifi... from her school i had a umbrella... but i took so long to find her damn school.. one stupid ang moh girl.. give me wrong direction.. i was walking correctly la.. she ask me walk the other side. F*&^!!!! arghh!!! nvm... then we all three went to eat at some THAI restaurant la.. forget the name le.. but the food is nice la.. the tom yum soup was a killer la.. damn spicy... rather than that.. all nice wor.. i give it 8 over ten for the food..

then head back home alone wor.. so bored at the MRT!!! alot of ppl has told me i have grew thinner... haix.. actually i also noe la.. and i noe why.. but i cant do anything.. ntg i can do.. cos.. all i can do is say.. "oh.. i will try eat more la.." if i can i would la.. jus don wanna explain anything more.. but as time passes.. i noe i am filling moi lungs wit the knife in my back.. it hurts la.. but i have to get it done.. but that won change moi anything for U la..

Seven more days for moi pay... twelve days for the money to be in moi hand.. and seventeen days more for chalet... i realli can get to see U all the way...!!!

Its jus get harder each day.. when time passes!!!


<3 <3 <3 <3



i Jus Miss U!!!

its been long since i last blogged.. working.. and studying.. and was sick a few days.. even up to now... haix.. this is going to be a sad entry.. so.. if u don like one.. u can buzz off from here.. cos theres no way i can write or tell it to firstly.. i hope no one will get hurt and sorry.. i use to think. being wit a person u realli love will make the person as happy as u are when u are wit the person.. but i suppose.. it is wrong.. i realised the meaning of breathing space in recent times.. well.. Its nothing i can do or say anything since the love is only one sided.. but no matter what i get eg. beaten up or scolded or even shouted at in public, i suppose.. i will still smile and be wit u as caring as i can... cos i have openly declared moi love for U.. and alot of people noe it too..

nowadays.. i am always alone.. hoping to hear from U... hoping u are fine.. even though u are not moi gf.. well.. comparing me to others may prove a point in some way... but.. i can say the one u compare me to will be different... i cant explain the details cos i don noe how to.. haiz.. maybe cos.. like wad u say.. i tend to take things seriously.. u think so..?? maybe.. if it is concerned abt U..

I keep having headache... well cos i don have enough sleep.. i have to resort to stuff that i nv once thought i have to do.. it realli takes two hands to clap.. one alone cant do much.. and jus as wad i use to do when i miss U terribly.. now i still do the same.. but not wanting u to noe...

I realli have no choice that i have to write here cos.. i have no where.. and i realli cant take it.. hope reading this won make anyone upset and even drift further from me... but all i can say.... Its was nv once ur fault.. from the start till now... thinking hard and well enuff.. i guess and prefer to take all at moi faults cos.. U are realli a gift.. not a present but a gift from God to earth.. But.. at the ssame time.. i am jus not lucky enuff..

No matter wad i do or wad u do... U will always be well treasured kept deep in moi heart and nv will i let u go cos.. i noe U are the prefect one for me.. and i have moi true love jus for U... but utterly sadly.. moi true love was never once mine.. will it be mine today..?? i have no idea.. All i can do.. is to wish U the best for everything and make sure u are safe and happy.. and to be always there even before u call for me.. and smile to U everytime i am wit U.. and treasure every single second wit U.. but yet when i am all alone at home.. i jus close moi door and cry in moi corner of moi room thinking Of U.. and missing U badly..

*Nun woonei yeapolutun kadalipain moi uyirai vida naisipain an kadalehx*

NEVER WILL I WALK OUT OF UR LIFE!!! PLS DON WALK OUT FROM MINE!!

hey blog.. i realli wanna write so much of things here.. cos.. u are realli the only one i tell all moi secrets too.. but now.. i cant write here too.. i am sorry blog.. i am going crazy blog.. cos.. i super Miss moi Anbae... ya.. realli miss lor.. realli realli.. sometimes i feel so weak when tears start to drip.. then mood swing.. sucks man this character of mine.. then surely moi anbae can sense something wrong.. then ask me wad happen.. then i realli don noe what to say.. cos.. I miss U badly.. idiot dinesh.. she is jus beside U.. i realli don noe wor.. but love is realli sweet la.. wadever anbae do to me.. make me smile.. and think she cares for me... for her.. everything i think for is diffferent.. feelings are hard to express when u are nuts up in the head.. then when i explode and tell moiself.. how much i love moi anbae.. all i do.. is tear out.. gosh!!!!

well.. finally have moi off today and ya.. i went out to town.. hmm.. not realli in a good mood. stupid singapore.. find where also cannot find the HL white milk small packet.. jus now at suntec seven eleven don have.. jurong point seven eleven do have.. the shop below moi house also don have.. damn sucks sia.. irritated..

hmmm... well.. i realli have to earn money.. cos.. i wan to do alot of things.. haix.. but working like one month cant do much for me.. haix.. i wan buy new handphone cos.. moi fone has spoiled.. haix.. Dad say wan pay for me.. but i don wan la... i prefer to buy moiself.. hmmm..

Today at suntec... bought durian puffs wit mummy.. the durian puffs are realli very very nice.. hmm.. real good stuff... hmm.. went to walk at town.. walk walk and walk.. and ya.. as usual nothing caught moi attention.. to buy for moiself..

well.. as i was coming home i was thinking hard and i realised.. i am realli not even close to good guy.. well... maybe cos.. moi confidence is slowly decreasing.. i don noe.. i realli wanna make ppl cheerful.. luff.. do nonsense and crap to make others luff their ass off.. but i am become more and more of a boring person.. talk a while.. later.. keep quiet.. like realli aint me.. but i don noe why i am like that these days.. then when i feel like doing something in the past.. within few seconds of thought.. i will do it.. now.. keep thinking for.. at least like half an hour.. then pluck up courage to do something..

i realli have no idea of why am i like that... no point haixing all the time..but realli feel so sick and weak about moiself.. this may be a little stupid and idoitic.. i look at the mirror always i tell moiself.. i look good.. now.. i see.. keep feeling there are so many things that don make me look good. vain..?? no la asshole.. i don noe how to say out the feeling la..

tmr.. gonna rot at home.. aint complaining.. U have to live ur life too.. u have ur own frens.. well.. as usual. i shall be a loner for the day.. unless any of moi brothers find me.. NITEX PPL!!!

it may make me tear.. if u leave me one day..!!! option isnt given to me!!!

back to blog.. ahah.. didnt even touch moi com/laptop like for like two three days.. finally online.. i see.. i have 25 email messages.. hahaha.. *shocked*

anyway.. finally found a job to work.. haha.. yeah.. its at cineleisure.. a restaurant maestro bistro.. quite slack and fun too.. one manager call adiman who is Indo Chinese is realli very good.. haha.. i am happy he was the one who supervise me.. aha.. at the end of the day.. he told me i have done well for the first day.. *smiles*

hmm.. this is not the only job i am working. i am also giving away flyers.. at jurong area.. and ya.. i have to give out flyers on 19th and 20th march at raffles place.. and its like u give flyers for two hours one day.. haha.. one hour $7... not bad ah.. haha.. lol..

kinda miss talking on the fone wit mummy.. hmmm. like a few days didnt liao.. she is also working.. hope she is doing fine now.. both pia pia till siao.. then take pay.. keep some money fot rainy days.. and ya.. the rest take go buy things.. eat GOod Food!! hahaha..

i guess thats abt it wor.. ciaoxx!!! will update when i have time!!!

to my dear blog,

i am so happy today.. i noe good tings will happen to good people at certain of a time.. but too many good things are happening.. firstly.. i am going to play tennis tmr.. isnt that a goos thing..? i am going to try out a new spor after seventeen years.. haha.. hope to play well.. need to thank mummy for inspiring.. even though she didnt noe.. whenever she came to talk abt her S n W class.. i will always thinking of learning how to play tennis.. tmr i shall do it.. the best way i can.. hahaha..

secondly.. i finally got a job.. i am so happy...i didnt expect to get the job so fast.. haha.. but ya.. i got it.. maybe cos.. the manager who interviewed me... thought i am friendly and sociable.. he told i was friendly.. hahahaa.. anyway.. gotta work and study at the same time.. and make sure i can get to spend time wit BM.. hahahaa.. hopefully.. i can blend wit the surrounding tmr.. hahah... i today see their work so slack.. hahaha.. can ah can ah.. i will try moi best.. hahaa...

anyway... i am happy i went out wit Bm today.. after a period of time.. happy though she scolded me for being naggy and irritating.. i am still happy i went out wit her... anyway.. no one will scold someone for no reason.. guess i deserved it.. anyway.. thats abt it.. sorry Bunny mUmmy!!

hmmm... very well.. Joe's birthday was well planned and we celebrated well.. hahaha.. he was a little shocked.. haha.. seeing him without his specs.. made him look different.. lol.. but there wasnt alot of ppl.. that made me a little unhappy.. hmm.. only nine or us went to celebrate wit him.. hmmm.. and ya.. sok yum sms him before him telling him she couldnt make it for his birthday.. like WTF!!!! screwed.. but still he was a little shocked la..

hmmm... yst.. i had jia wen to come to moi house to repair moi connection for the second time.. and ya.. its working in prefect conditon now.. hahha.. thanks dude.. he is realli a freaking funny guy.. the way he talks and reacts to things.. while talking to mummy.. she and i keep laughing abt him.. and ya.. that sick noel.. who reactions are the most retarded ever i have seen on earth.. haha.. after that.. i went to moi soccer training.. was given the role of playing left midfielder. playing that role the first time made it terrible for me.. but i noe.. among the whole team.. including the opponents... i was the only one who did alot of running.. cutting defenders.. passing the ball wide.. but oh well.. having five shots at goal.. i scored none.. lost touch of scoring.. lol...

anyway.. was supposed to go out today... but things didnt turn out well.. moi younger sister was sick.. moi parents working.. moi elder idiot die also wan go out.. so i had to sacrifice to stay home look after moi young one... i have no regrets la.. staying home.. jus that i could have spend more time wit u.. i couldnt.. sorry Anbae!!!

oh well.. whole day do ntg lor.. watch telly.. then sms mummy.. wait for her call me.. like.. she has already called me for eight times.. i am so happy.. haha.. she did bother to think abt me..=)
then i played maple a while.. haha.. then play Rainbow Six Lockdown.. haha.. and the day jus passed..

waiting for Jonathan's reply for a job in cine at a cafe.. i jus wanna work.. i wanna earn money.. haha.. yst farook said.. i go out too often. thats wht no money.. actually.. its more than jus that.. shall not talk abt it.. haha.. i am still happy... jus that if a little more money i have.. i will have a wider smile.. hahaha.. $.$,

Ciaoz!!!!

alright.. blogging blogging.. hahaha.. yst suppose to blog.. then didnt.. better blog before mummy scold me for not blogging.. hahaha.. cos told her i will blog yst.. hahahaa... fuck.. sorry mummy!!!

anyway.. today.. quite fun.. hahaha.. went to East coast to cycle wit half of D1. hahaha.. then go there.. borrow bicycle... chiong lor.. haha.. we only pay like 6 dollars for one hours and we cycle like for four hours.. haha.. three hours free!!! *twink* hmm.. damn jia wen.. reckless rider.. hahaha.. he almost made Noel and Jun yi fall..he suddenly stop then he turn back.. then ask.. y u suddenly stop..??like WHAT THE FUCK!!!!! he stop if front of them of cos they need to sto right.. hahaha.. Noel so crazy till he wanted to punch Jia wen's teeth in so that he will look like tom cruise(noel say de).. hahahaha..

hmmm.. jus came back from doing a quiz about moiself.. hahaha.. actually 90 over percent all correct la.. i shall drop a few details here.. haha.. but some will be kept as a secret.. haahaha

ME:
For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Dinesh has left lots of white space on the left side of the paper. Dinesh fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion. If this is true, then Dinesh has a healthy relationship to the past and is ready to move on. The right side of the page represents the future and Dinesh is ready and willing to get started living now and planning for the future. Dinesh would like to leave the past behind and move on.

And this below is damn fucking True about me:

Dinesh is a very emotional person with a broad range of emotions from the highest highs to the lowest lows. He feels emotional situations very strongly. He'll flash to the very peaks of elation, sweeping everything before him. Then, for some reason unknown to himself, he will burn out emotionally. These mood swings can be very disturbing to him. Sometimes, he feels that he can no longer produce anything. But, after given some time alone to "recharge his emotional batteries", he will spring back into action. Because Dinesh feels situations intensely, he relates easily to others' problems. If he is not careful, when he comes into contact with someone who is in a depressed frame of mind, he will also suffer the same emotions and change moods. Dinesh reacts impulsively, without much thought before hand. He may plan everything in detail before he even begins, then do it completely different when the time comes to carry it through.

hahaha.. anyway.. Its joe's birthday today.. 3/3/06.. hahaha.. was the first to call him wish happy birthday.. hahahah. hope he will be suprised and happy after his shock party.. ahaha..

Mummy.. sorry morning.. didnt pick up ur call.. haiz.. moi fone is havinf problems after it dropped that time.. haiz.. Sorry.. i noe it reali got U irrritated.. and ya.. sorry jus now.. About the Sms.. i only type Seven numbers..hope u don mind!!!

Moi heart is the only organ i jus to decide on most thingss.. thats why wadever i feel.. i jus say it out.. hmmmm..

i guess thats about it la.. Wonnei kadalipati aipotun.. wonnei nun maravan aipotun.. ni annai maranta poolatun.. nun woonei marakavilaiya!!!! =)