life isnt happy all the time... i aint prefect all the time.. i am sorry if i am very irritating.. i realli jus crap.. crack jokes.. do lame things even though i noe its lame.. and do nonsensical and naughty stuff for one reason.. and only one reason!!! jus to make u smile and laugh.. and at least for that time as i see u smile and be happy.. i feel happy.. time and time again.. i make u irritated.. and ya i get scolded.. but i still wan to be wit u.. every second be it we are happy.. sad.. i jus wanna be wit u.. sometimes i am jus quiet cos.. as i reflect upon moiself.. things i do to make u happy turns out to be things that u don like and makes u irritated.. thats when i feel very low in self esteem.. and i lack of confidence.. its not a matter of being man enuff... maybe i am a emotional person.. i see u happy.. i feel fucking in everything.. sometimes.. penis also stand(NONSENSE)... but see u sad.. i realli wan to bring out the smile from u.. but jus afraid i will make u more dulan.. even though moi love cant be expressed.. inside that is always this glow of light thats thinks of u all the time.. knowing u and being close to u for the past nine months is and will be the best thing in moi life.. i realli have to plead guilty if someone accuses me of being very caring to u.. every single thing u do.. i make sure.. its safe.. and it will make u smile.. but i didnt noe u have find me self centered.. maybe i don realli noe the meaning of it.. thats why.. be it studies.. laughter or cry... i wan to do it wit u... fail we fail together... call me stupid.. i don care.. cos deep inside.. ya i am wasting time repeating module.. but being in the same class doing the smae work wit u.. makes me feel veruy very very happy.. cos its wit u... i nv once thought of taking advantage of u or anything that u have.. i always prefer to give than take.. thats jus me.. but time and time.. i still make u sad... i realli wish to tell u so much of things.. but.. it will only end up in drip of tears... again not man enuff..? anything u say..

U may find this blog entry very stupid.. useless.. and even idiotic... but i can tell u only this.. cos the fact still remains as strong as it has always been.. I STILL LOVE U!!! I STILL CARE FOR U!!! U WILL ALWAYS BE THE ONE!!!

cant even bring fun and happiness to one's life.. am i pathetic..?? Guess SO!!