alright.. blogging has been a thing i have been doing for the past three days to kill time.. hmm...nothing much i can do at home la.. got used to the word BORED.. didnt have mood very early in the morning.. due to the shouts made be her very early in the morning.. didnt even have the heart to eat breakfast.. oh well.. didnt eat in the end.. one meal missed..

i was jus inside moi room.. wit door closed.. lying on moi floor.. thinking of many things.. and i realise.. actually.. there are two good frens of human.. they are called smile and tear... moi fren smile talk to me first when i started to think lying down on the floor.. but in the end i realise it actually the tear who is moi true best fren and the one who stays wit me..

then i sms BM.. but i realise she was ironing.. was rather a little disappointed to hear wad she was doing.. the same chore. haix.. then again.. without thinking properly.. i jus speak moi mind out lor.. only upon receiving her sms.. i realise.. i shouldnt have asked the question.. but oh well.. this is a result of wad happens if u use ur heart all the way instead of using ur mind when u are suppose to.. but wad to do..? i use moi heart and do wad it says more than wad moi mind tell me to.. moi heart reacts faster.. i guess.. its not a matter of getting hurt or being sensitive.. its jus a lesson moi heart got to tell moi mind to work as well too..

I Asked U a Question.. Ur reply made me Dumfounded!!! Sorry!!

alright.. i am feeling damn bored.. haix.. realli is nothing to do.. i have finish up moi EEPS work.. C prgramming fucking don noe how to do.. haha... realli feeling very lonely.. jus like the days after moi O levels.. after i stop working.. today was rather very normal.. didn everything i do as usual when i am at home..

BUt there is one incident that make me feel happy yet guilty.. guilty of murdering.. yes.. i plead guilty.. there was this ah beng keep coming into moi room and disturb me.. sit on top of me.. make me feel irritated.. distract me.. i couldnt take it.. finally i manager to grab that idiotic brown beetle.. and i knew its still alive.. to tecah it a good lesson. i jus on moi stove and throw it into the flame.. and all i did at that point of time.. was look at it and say.. haha.. now u cant disturb me anymore asshole.. haha.. after i off the stove.. the beetle looked very crispy.. haha.. overcooked i suppose..

but then again.. to think abt it. it so evil.. to kill an insect.. haix.. sorry MR.beetle... may u rest in peace.. haha.. hmm.. practically didnt have any mood to do anything.. most of the time i was lying down on bed thinking whether or not to sms u.. haha.. but u are busy la.. don disturb ba... so jus read all the smses u send me.. even though the real precious ones were deleted accidentally.. in ur heart.. u noe what u send me.. haha.. u even send me a sms when i was jus sitting beside u on the bus to jurong from causeway point.. haha.. moi memory so good...

anyway... hope everything will be fine and today and tmr will pass faster.. at least i will go back to school.. and time will fly faster instead of seeing the time pass and clock tick so slowly..

I will Always LOVE U!!!

hahaha.. finally i am recovering from chicken pox.. or should i say.. hmmm.. i have recovered.. and i went to schol yst.. hahaha.. no one knew.. except.. hahaha.. eddie.. hmm.. i wanted to suprise BM.. so i didnt tell her.. but chey.. she this pig.. sleep sleep then i cannot chu stunt.. hee hee.. nvm.. so meet her.. went to school.. lol.. the time we enter the class.. the AEL lecturer say.. class over.. sucks.. haha.. oh well.. we got our attendance signed.. hee hee..

All moi class mates so shocked.. i recover so fast.. oh well.. dinesh ma.. fit fit.. strong strong.. of cos speedy recovery.. then.. went to west mall.. during moi one houre break.. then came back to school.. to attend lesson.. oh well.. was late again.. haha.. but the lecturer so good.. she jus smile.. say.. next time must earlier.. haha.. then she also become siao siao liao.. like all lecturers teaching 1D1.. 1D1 jus make every lecturer go mad cos.. lecturer say my class very noisy.. but we say.. noisy then good.. cos.. NOISY=ACTIVE.. all lecturer hear this.. BWG.. hee hee.. then moi class cutest girl.. haha.. xing zhi.. laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh.. till her whole face so red.. can also see her face cramped.. hee hee.. then.. noel keep destroying all the equipments.. haha.. use the pillar cut the training board.. pull out the resistors throw away anyhow.. hahaha.. jus for fun to be wit 1D1.. haha..

then suddenly the lecturer say.. this class i cant remember all the names.. but i can remember all the naughty and noisy/active ones.. haha.. then she start saying.. Ben yeo(Thw guy in moi class everytime wrong frequency.. he talk everything also whole class don understand.. only he luff himself), Lok Ping(the guy who talks and shoots every lecturer and all his jokes makes the whole class roll on the floor), Jonathan(the guy who is clever but everytime ask the teacher wad time we are going home.. since it is a five hour lesson), dinesh(me la) and ya.. hahaha.. Norman(that Asshole who is moi best bud in class.. u noe.. i can click wit him.. so u noe how is his character).. hahaaha..

Then lesson was over.. we all jump and jump.. the lecturer say.. go go go.. like cant take us anymore.. haha.. like all lecturers.. hee hee... then wait for Mummy.. haha. fetch her to Bugis... cos she is working.. haha.. then i went back home alone.. as ussual.. but its always nice to spend time wit her.. be it.. she is happy.. mad.. sad.. angry.. irritated.. haha..

Came back home.. was late by 15 mins.. haha.. i quickly bath.. cos whole family was prepared.. then was waiting for me to go out for dinner.. hahaha.. then moi dad keep staring at me.. then.. come out of the toilet.. then he punch me and hug me.. haha.. good dad i have.. TWink!! lol.. sorry to those who call me yst night.. i now having two lines. cos.. one is moi old number..92373067.. another number is91037102.. haha.. but anyway.. i had great pain at the back of moi head.. gosh.. it was so painful.. probably cos.. i didnt have enuff sleep. the day before.. haha..

anyway.. geraldine and family went to korea to celebrate Chines new year.. most probably they lazy clean house.. then don wan their relatives come to their house.. lol.. sorry sorry.. haha... anyhow say her family.. but hope they will have a good time there.. haha.. hmm..

anyway.. Ngee ann OPen house is from 2Nd to 4th of FEb.. hope mo juniors will come and take a look at wad Ngee ann has to offer.. hahah..

I guess thats abt it.. anyway.. HAppy Chinese New Year to all those celebrating New year.. GOng Xi Fa CAi ppl.. hahaha.. shall end here now.. hmmm

DREAM BIG BUT HAVE GUTS TO FAIL!!!!

hey hey... hmmm.. finally like after thirteen days i am blogging.. haha.. like fucking thirteen days.. thats long la.. but come to see.. i don realli have alot of things to blog.. hahahah..

okie.. THE biggest news.. hmm... I AM down wit chicken Pox.. gosh.. hmm.. and i fucking ten days don need to go school.. haix.. ten days lehx.. will be missing out on alot of things.. haiz... moi assignmentx.. fun at school.. travelling in bus.. crapping wit mummy.. bullying mummy.. everything miss... tsk tsk... mummy has to be all alone in school now.. hmm..haha.. anyway... hope it will be okie soon.. and i will return back to school.. QUICK QUICK... i wanna go back to school..

Staying at home.. i jus do a few things only.. eat... sleep.. watch tv.. use com.. sms.. rot.. decompose.. decay.. arghh.. fucking bored.. ten days lehx.. i cant even go out lor.. gosh.. the pox on moi head is now itchy.. very tempted to scratch but shouldnt do it.. haix...

ANyway.. MAn U won yst la.. so damn happy.. when the goal that came in the las minute crushed liverpool's each and every player's face.. hahaha.. all their fans can now.. look at the floor and admite defeat.. LOL.. gtg.. Ciaoxx!!! i blogged cos i Am Bored!!!

hey hey.. here to blog again... i am now fucking using moi home com.. cos moi fucking laptop cant connect to the fucking wireless network from fucking don noe who.. damn dulan.. arrgghhh.. anyway.. woke up in the morning.. to clean up moi prayer room.. and wash up moi clothes.. haha.. and also moi muddy soccer boots.. and smelly soccer socks.. hmm..

then.. was trying to connect up laptop wit that wireless but couldnt.. then moi sis use home com.. then connect to moi home com's network.. haha.. kinda weird.. but nvm.. i computer noob.. haha.. anyway. then went off to meet moi "family".. haha.. Moi mummy.. wei heng.. xing yi AND vemon.. haha.. its always nice to go out wit them.. jus that xing yi and vemon always go missing. haha.. hmmm.. head down to queensway to shop for wei heng.. bought him shoes and a shirt. haha... i wan to get a Shirt from "DA CAve".. didnt tell anyone that the shirt is nice.. but inside heart reeali like it alot.. haha.. sssshhh..

then mummy and i fell in love.. wit this pair of shoes.. haah.. nike shoes. its name is LEgend.. hhaaha.. nice lor.. but the price damn ex.. 132 dollars.. haix.. no money no talk.. didnt buy.. next head down to bugis.. then.. i saw this pink panther shirt that looks cool.. also so ex.. 32 dollars.. haix.. then went to bugis village to buy berms for wei heng. haha.. he bought something plain and simple.. but i saw something that caught both my and mummy's attention.. and its only 23 dollars.. haha.. cheap cheap.. but still.. haix. didnt buy.. then head back home... and bioguth food for moi sis..

Finally to sms moi mummy is so joy at the heart.. haix.. but i guess.. i need to thank her.. for.. (She noes wad).. thanks MUmmy.. anyway.. i reaalli wanted to spend time wit u.. but i couldnt.. haix.. the thing that u did jus now.. made me think of ur good heart and ya drip.. haix.. i couldnt be any luckier to have found u... anyway.. i guess thats abt it.. hope all moi loved ones are doing fine.. ppl like moi bros.. moi sisters.. moi Nu ers.. Bee bee.. wei ting.. hope all of them don have so many things up their head thats bothering them.. unlike me.. being at home feels terrible.. gtg.. Adios

after five days.. i am here to blog again.. so many things happened during these five days... hmm.. don noe where to start la.. but last saturday.. went to meet moi mummy to pass her Ipod.. then came back home.. brought moi younger sister back to boon lay secondary school.. haha.. moi ex secondary school.. to ya.. take bursary.. haha.. oh well. she got three hundred five dollars.. haha.. then saw alot ppl that i havent seen for ages.. haha.. hmm.. firstly.. ya.. moi brother sufyan.. hahah.. heart inside very happy la.. realli very lone didnt see him.. but he was far away.. so mis call him.. the next second i was looking at him.. he was waving at me la.. haha.. bro bro.. i miss the times when we were so close..

Next i saw.. hmm.. michelle.. the only girl who calls me Ah PA.. hahaha.. so cute girl.. so blur yet so fun to be with. lol. she also first look at me.. "AHHHH PAAAAA" so loud.. i had aunties and unlces looking at me.. haha.. but fucking who cares.. lol.. hmm... then saw Hwee Qi.. oh well.. she looked A lil tall with her heels that day.. haha.. hmm.. yet shorter than me by one head.. lol.. hmmm... and ya.. i also saw Bee bee.. she look at me then act didnt see.. haha.. the normal her.. then a while later.. come talk to me.. haha.. she looked tired.. and ya.. she has grew thinnner.. and she looks better w/o specs.. haha..

After taking bursary.. i went to play moi soccer match.. we lost anyway.. teriible play by me.. which made the team lose la.. but i suppose.. i have to learn from mistakes.. hahaha.. nvm..

Sunday.. haha.. went to meet Mummy.. hmmm.. xing yi... fifi.. and ya.. mOi gay partner vemon.. hope xing yi see this not dulan but he was mine first b4 he is urs.. hahaha.. lol.. then we went to orchard.. walk walk walk walk walk walk and ya shop too.. hahaha... fun la.. together as a group is always fun.. haha..then we were all caught in the rain.. shit right.. but luckily.. got umbrella.. then i picked up the job of sending every one from one location to another.. haha.. i was totally drenched in the end.. but nvm la.. as long they all not drenched.. haha.. oh ya.. we saw carolyn too.. so shocking cos.. morning mummy and i were jus talking abt her la.. then at night see her.. haha.. she poked me from the back. i was thinking who la.. but ya.. caroyln.. so sweet of u.. meet me one time only.. but.. still can remember me.. hahaha.. *Twink*

anyway.. i think thats abt it la.. haha... this song goes to any dad who hurt their kids in any way!! HAIX!!!

Hey Dad look at me Think back and talk to me Did I grow up according To plan? And do you think I'm wasting My time doing things I Wanna do? But it hurts when you Disapprove all along And now I try hard to make it I just wanna make you proud I'm never gonna be good Enough for you I can't pretend that I'm alright And you can't change me Cuz we lost it all Nothing lasts forever I'm sorry I can't be Perfect Now it's just too late And we can't go back now I'm sorry I can't be Perfect ..........

THats abt it.. GTg.. signing off...

haha... so i am here to blog again.. haaha.. oh well.. exams are still going on.. i finish two papers liao... haha... Engineering Mathematics.. Then Engineering Mechanics.. Left wit Ael.. and I noe Nuts abt it.. haha.. fail..?? maybe.. anyway.. no time blog la.. got better things to do.. like.. hmm.. Watch Tv.. hahha.. gtg.. Ciaoxx.. will blog longer soon..

Its has been four days since i last blog.. and it was last year.. LOL.. haha.. today is a new year.. 2006.. everyone reading this entry.. Happy New Year Peeps.. oh well.. time realli flies.. i realli miss moi secondary school life.. hmmm... Moi brothers... moi class... moi mei mei hwee qi... moi colour court... moi basketball.. moi track and field.. haix... times in Boon lay Community Club.. bee bee... oh well.. i miss alot of stuff.. but ya.. i learn to live life.. cos.. U noe.. time won stop.. but moi heart didnt move... till i got into poly.. i jus feel everything missed by me was not well taken care of by me.. then now suffer... but life goes on...

But i also feel very happy.. cos.. last year.. i also found moi Bunny Mummy.. haha.. such a sweet thing to be wit.. jus that nowadays.. she rarely smiles.. haix.. all moi fault.. and ya.. norman... wei ling.. moi class D1... haha.. kenneth.. and oh ya.. MOi damn good bro.. Alvin.. LOve him lots.. haha..

since its a new year... i have decided to do a few things.. and stick to it... but i suppose the list goes on.. but oh well.. i waana shout it out.. no one stops me.. so here i go..

*Keep moi Bunny Mummy smiling all the time when i am around..
*Do very well for Moi modules in Poly..
*Never repeat modules..
*Try not to Pon lessons..
*Play more soccer and learn fancy stuff..
*Wadever i feel.. i jus say it out and don keep it inside..
*Work a part time job.. so that i have money to Spend and save For MOi motorbike license..
*Treasure everyone who are around me..
*Try not to hurt others by moi words which i say out without thinking well..

I guess thats abt it lor.. but i hope.. everything jus told here wit a * can be done.. haha.. i jus wanna live life... wit U by moi side.. oh well... haha.. hope everything will go well.. and 2006 will be full of happiness wit minimum sadness... ADios...