Well I don noe where to start but I shall start from the tournament.. well.. we got fourth out of twenty two teams.. not bad la.. first time the first of us played together.. haha.. well happy.. then i went to town to find mummy when moi 50 dollars OPTIONS sandal gave way.. haix. Then go buy sandals lor.. I find them nice but mummy and Norman say look like ah pei.. whahaha.. I like..

Yst was moi elder’s sister’s birthday.. haha.. went to buy her gift and mummy made her a card for her.. firstly mummy and I went to DIDi shop haha.. and oh my oh my.. SHE has done real difference to her shop.. shall not explain wad.. later other owners reading jealous.. haha.. then went to MOs burger to eat dinner wit moi elder sister.

Well..i guess moi mummy and moi elder sister can communicate well.. and they joined together to bully me.. haha.. it was fun.. hope moi sister and ya mummy had a good nigh yst.. all thanks to me for bringing them together.. whahaha.. THICK SKIN dinesh…

Then today I received a letter.. shall not say from who and abt wat.. but I am happy. I got it.. kinda made me smile and tear a little.. tears of sadness or tears of joy.. not sure.. hmmm… then went to meet fifi to eat ban mian… its never sian to eat ban mian.. hee heee… Yummy yummy.. hmmm and ya.. I almost swallow a fluid today(shall not state wad) but I hope no one ever drink it up.. cos it tastes worse than anything u can think of..

Hmmm… That’s abt it.. Emotionally stirred.. mentally disturbed!!!

times have changed.. i guess i am no longer the angry hot tempered.. i think that dinesh has went to sleep inside moiself.. will he ever wake up..?? not sure.. hmmm..

today woke up wit a grumbles at heart.. cos.. it was so early.. like 8 and i went to meet moi mother.. at Raffles place MRt.. then go Plaza Singapura.. to get her Replacement sim card.. second time she lost her fone le.. haha.. hmmm.. then.. then got receive sms from mummy.. wad excepting so early.. cos she always does it like 12.. haha.. brought a smile to moi face. hmm.. then i need to thANKS MOI MOTHER FOR paying moi hp bill... it was 184 dollars and she paid it for me. even though she nag a little.. then come back home.. on the way.. she saw moi New IPod.. all thanks to Apple.. haha.. spoil a little and they gave me a brand new one.. KNN.. they realli alot of money.. haha.. next time i not happy i anyhow throw MOi Ipod.. at most go to the service center get another only.. think Apple richer than GAHmen.. haha.. hmmm.. then she say she wil gimme money later to buy Ipod Skin.. i say anything lor.. reach jurong point.. then she bought me moi Bus Concession.. how to thank MOi mother..?? haha... she is good ya..

suddenly i received a call FRom mummy.. haha.. "hellO".. i said.. "ey.. why i call u ah..??" mummy said.. then she burst into laughter.. then end call.. i was laughing al the way from moi house bus stop till moi room.. haha... rarely i get to hear her luff so much on the fone.. haha nvm.. lol.. then clean up moi room lor.. then i realise i was done.. haha.. then wash moi clothes... hmmm.. now so sian.. i realli guess at times i cant be the person ppl wan me to be or wad i wan to be to someone else.. last time.. i jus fuck it.. ask ppl accept me as who i am.. haha.. now also same.. but i guess.. i have to change a little too.. change for the better..?? hahah.. maybe.. hmmm... thinking if norman is fine.. he had hip pain yst.. hope he is doing fine.. and ya.. hope wei ling has recovered.. norman told me she was sick... hmmm..

supposed to have bbq today.. but last minute cancelled.. reason.. i also don noe.. didnt plan well.. haix.. blame moiself ya.. hmm.. anyway.. i wish i could tear moi heart open to show u how much i care for u.. haha.. i am trying.. hope U can feel it.. haha... jus that weakness is i cant do much.. haha.. weakness can u leave me so that it will be easier for me.. lol.. hahaha.. now i feel like dissturbing mummy.. haha.. lol.. see her luff.. haha.. then kena beat for sure.. haha.. hmmm..

tmr having tournament to play.. haix... also early in the morning.. hmmm at clementi.. hope GOd is there to guide me to put the ball past the goal keeper.. haha.. hopefully to win at least first two in the tournament. GOD... heLP is needeD!!! haha...

MOnday is MOi elder sister birthday.... still very much confused what to buy for her.. hahah.... anyone reading this wit any suggestions.???its also CAndy and Jean's birthday... tsk tsk.. hmmm.. i guess at times.. i miss moi secondary school... haha.. and it cos.. OF moi well loved brothers... Ek siong.. edmund. teck chye.. songling.. chee wei( ten year bro/fren), kenny, daryl, tank, wei ke, alex, dong ling, jerome, wei hao, jun ren, wei lun, de xiang, dexter, jonathan, wei bin, wei liang, wei zhuang, andrew, cheng ming, si ping and sufyan.. haha.. we realli is one group of babaric monkeys.. haha.. lol..haix.. not forgetting U.. u are not here in this world wit us.. but u are always remembered by me.. MIss U terribly... don wan to mention ur name ya.. i still wear ur ear ring on moi neck ass hole!!!

GTg.. Ciaoz!!! signing OFf.. DineSh the REtarded SquiRRel!!! haha!!

hmmm.. kinda so bad.. didnt attend lesson after moi break.. lol.. ENg MEC and C programming... too bad.. haha.. pon le.. do wad..?? lol... watch movie lor.. hee hee.. watch jus like heaven.. kinda nice movie.. the story line is diff.. its may not be worth the whole amount u pay to watch.. cos its a little too rushy.. hmm.. but ntg can be compared to the A WALK TO REMEMBER movie.. lol.. hee hee... then came back.. then.. threw moi things.. then go jurong point wit mummy to meet FIFI ..after so long didnt stay at jp.. haha.. the feelings so nice.. i was smiling.. to moiself. rather mad.. haha.. then meet fifi go town.. for again no reason.. haha.. don wan to explain much.. lol.. then while coming back.. came pass alot of ppl wearing all types of shit.. had a gal who had" PANTY LINER" till her shin.. haha.. then moi guy wearing read bermudas.. and his belt look like some dog strap.. haha.. then i guess moi blocked nose and head ache was a killer.. killed moi mood. till i was moody.. haix.. sorry.. didnt mean it.. but i am sorry.. haix.. i guess ntg is impossible if u try anf ur heart in it and give everything u have.. i mean.. impossible may be nothing.. i am trying for the impossible!!! NUN wonnei UYirai VIda neisikiraiN!!! ANBAE ni??

THe Ship WAs going Fine Till suddenly it Capsized.. that was how moi day was in school.. it started off fine.. C programming.. lol.. okie la.. then Eng MEc!! lol.. MOI lecturer is damn fun la.. then.. break!! went to canteen one after weeks.. lol.. ate moi sushi.. yummy yummy yum yum.. so nice lor.. haha.. i no class le.. but crash into 1D1 class.. play wit "TAMIYA CARS".. damn fun lor.. me and norman wanted it to fly so.. let it run from above the cupboard.. then it went crahing to the floor.. then all i and norman did was HAHAHAHAA!!! childish.. but fun ya.. then went to see JOHNNIE boi for c programming.. while mummy went to some xia lan class for AEL practical.. arghh.. could believe that johnnie boi was actually 29 yeras old.. he looks like 20 21.. haha.. small boy.. haha.. then... he and keith were so shocked.. i could chinese.. well.. its not the first time ppl's face stone a while when i talk chinese.. lol. then meet moi mummy go canteen 2.. fucking fuck up canteen.. screw that canteen.. what mummy wan also don have.. LOR mee.. BAn mIAn.. before that i kept making her irritated.. say QI fan add Qi.. then she irritataed but still luff.. thats her.. lol.. but don have anything.. then i guess she was easily irritated the whole day.. she cried.. haix.. i fucking couldnt take it.. eat also cant eat.. hey.. i am sorry if it was moi fault.. then was quiet for some time.. moi heart was pounding hoping she don break down again.. hopefully didnt.. then sat in front of a "hippo" FACE TO FACE.. fucking fat.. argghhh.. then her leg stretch so far.. mummy purposely step onto her steps and sit directly in front of her.. lol.. she like no feelings.. haha.. then kick kick kick lor.. from Ngee ann POly till bukit batok sec she no feeling de.. then finally she moved her legs to herself.. stupid shit.. haha.. then go eat BAn mian.. haha.. kinda miss FIFi who will always eat wit us.. lol.. nvm.. she went to someone special to her.. haha.. alright.. then... went back home.. boon lay interchange saw Wei ting.. haha.. kinda happy.. she become a little skinner le.. haha.. good fren of mine. haha.. always console me when i am down.. she say she will be moi listening ear.. lol.. her hair style damn cool.. haha.. thats abt lor.. i realli hope mummy u don cry suddenly pls.. its hard to bear.. hmmm.. sOryy.. CiaozZZ

kinda a few days didnt blog.. hmmm.. too lazy.. tired.. hmmm.. but thanks to Kai how who change moi tag board for me.. hmmm... did kinda few things past weekend. lol.. went to run after friday lessons.. hmm.. reach home like ten.. thanks to mummy who waited for me.. lol.. =) and she clocked moi 100m as 10.58.. guess she was a little slow.. but only i colud run thatg fast.. shiok sia.. lol.. can run for singapore.. hmmm... saturday came.. all i did was rot lor.. hmmm.. then went to buy cheese cream and lemon to mummy so that she can make cookies.. if i noe u would burn ur hand.. i wouldnt have bought for u.. hmm.. sunday.. the day i was waiting for the whole week.. cos. me... fifi and mummy went to wild wild wet.. lol.. hee hee.. didi and her bf pang seh us.. i wan burn down her shop le.. lol.. hee hee.. but wild wild wet not bad la.. quite fun.. lol.. i super like the........... haha..... the children playground.. super big.. so many slides.. hee hee.. and i jus realise no one can actually drown in a baby pool.. lol.. hahahaha.... but was fun la.. lol.. hee hee.. then went to eat steam boat... hmmm.. yum yum.. live prawns... lol.. hee hee.. live crabs.. i did the cleaning and killing of the live crab.. MURDERER ME!!! lol.. hahah.. then go home lor.. on the way home. i was brutally abused by bunny mummy.. pinch moi cheeks that i could feel its hot.. before that she accidentaly stepped on moi toe wit her heels.. now moi toe is swollen.. lol.. nvm.. today.. monday... lol.. ntg much la... moi cats lesson was fun.. hee hee.. bullied the teacher till she went.. "dinesh.. i think u are going overboard". then i went " i noe moi limits". and all she could do was luff.. did i say anything funny.. what the.. well.. after that S and W... fun ya.. did alot of running.. soon after finish.. went to find jia wen who help me install fifa 06.. need for speed wanted and Visual C++.. he is real damn good wit computers.. thanks bro.. that abt it la.. mummy seemed to be very tired today.. so am i.. i am so sick.. moi throat hurts like fuck.. having cough... having flu and block nose.. couldnt sleep well cos of this shit yst.. thats abt it.. hope i can have a good slp today.. misS Ur sMIle!!!

kinda a few days didnt blog.. hmmm.. too lazy.. tired.. hmmm.. but thanks to Kai how who change moi tag board for me.. hmmm... did kinda few things past weekend. lol.. went to run after friday lessons.. hmm.. reach home like ten.. thanks to mummy who waited for me.. lol.. =) and she clocked moi 100m as 10.58.. guess she was a little slow.. but only i colud run thatg fast.. shiok sia.. lol.. can run for singapore.. hmmm... saturday came.. all i did was rot lor.. hmmm.. then went to buy cheese cream and lemon to mummy so that she can make cookies.. if i noe u would burn ur hand.. i wouldnt have bought for u.. hmm.. sunday.. the day i was waiting for the whole week.. cos. me... fifi and mummy went to wild wild wet.. lol.. hee hee.. didi and her bf pang seh us.. i wan burn down her shop le.. lol.. hee hee.. but wild wild wet not bad la.. quite fun.. lol.. i super like the........... haha..... the children playground.. super big.. so many slides.. hee hee.. and i jus realise no one can actually drown in a baby pool.. lol.. hahahaha.... but was fun la.. lol.. hee hee.. then went to eat steam boat... hmmm.. yum yum.. live prawns... lol.. hee hee.. live crabs.. i did the cleaning and killing of the live crab.. MURDERER ME!!! lol.. hahah.. then go home lor.. on the way home. i was brutally abused by bunny mummy.. pinch moi cheeks that i could feel its hot.. before that she accidentaly stepped on moi toe wit her heels.. now moi toe is swollen.. lol.. nvm.. today.. monday... lol.. ntg much la... moi cats lesson was fun.. hee hee.. bullied the teacher till she went.. "dinesh.. i think u are going overboard". then i went " i noe moi limits". and all she could do was luff.. did i say anything funny.. what the.. well.. after that S and W... fun ya.. did alot of running.. soon after finish.. went to find jia wen who help me install fifa 06.. need for speed wanted and Visual C++.. he is real damn good wit computers.. thanks bro.. that abt it la.. mummy seemed to be very tired today.. so am i.. i am so sick.. moi throat hurts like fuck.. having cough... having flu and block nose.. couldnt sleep well cos of this shit yst.. thats abt it.. hope i can have a good slp today.. misS Ur sMIle!!!

fucking stress lor.. wan to cut down on vulgarities.. like that the mood like fuck.. how to..?? haix... today.. go SCH.. first lesson ELEctronics TUTorial.. lecturer damn xia lan.. same lecturer as mummy.. haix.. shit.. nvm.. then realise.. i am stuck in C programming also.. fuck man.. but i think i manage to catch the steps la. should be able to handle.. U seemed to be stress today.. NVM LA.. it has past... hmm.. today i heard a song.. i always hear wit U moi bro.. haix.. u left me.. but.. u always will live in me.. i miss u badly.. i hear hear.. i drip tears in the toilet.. haix.. why u so stupid..?? haix.. i realli wish u are her to go thick and thin wit me.. u told me so.. but u leave w/o thinking for me.. haix.. i would never get to see u again.. haix.. today got wet in the rain for no reason.. wanted to meet fifi end up no meet.. then go eat fries at mac wit mummy.. then.. rain.. shit.. go home.. get wet lor.. hmmm.. thats abt it la.. i feel a little irritated today.. maybe alot la.. haix.. if someone how to reduce irritatedness... it would be of great help... arghh.. BUzz OFF!!!

back to blog again.. haha.. its rare i blog twice in one day.. lol.. but ya.. can talk alot now.. haha.. after school i and mummy went to eat.. fuck eat till siao.. lol.. alot lor.. almost spend twenty.. but ya.. no regrets.. so happy.. can eat.. haha.. without worrying.. lol.. hee hee.. then moi mummy called me.. lol.. say... she transfer me money.. i so happy.. so i go check.. WHA!!! power.. Two Hundred dollars. lol.. then now i get back home.. she wan me to transfer hundred to moi elder sis. shit man.. but nvm.. hundred better than nothing.. and ya.. i realise i and mummy can talk something that only me and her.. can understand.. even animals hear close ears.. haha... damn funny and weird.. but yet we understand... lol.. then while coming back home.. i became a little sadistic.. took the number tag which will be out at the back of the bus.. and beat moi own head for no reason.. then break into laughter!!! siao siao.. then can talk to moi watch.. Am i crazy..?? for the period of time.. i guess i was.. lol... then.. okie.. from.. interchange coming back to home. took 243W.. once i got up the bus.. like i always do.. look at the bus driver.. didnt look very nice la.. he looked like a pervertic psycho.. but nvm.. then he drove the bus out from the interchange like he is driving a jeep at a desert.. asshole.. anyhow turn turn turn.. wish i could fucking turn his penis upside down.. then ppl at the 243 realli damn inconsiderate.. see pregnant lady still don wan wake up.. haix.. ntg to say.. singaporeans attitude.. then that pregnant woman was standing beside.. then.. there was this turn made by that ass hole.. he like turn like driving AE86.. he think he JAy chou.. CHou chee bai la.. almost everyone moved alot.. the pregant woman almost fell.. luckily.. i grab hold on her hand and pull her.. OMG!! thank GOD!! to see her fall and cry.. i would fucking kill that driver.. then came another turn.. CCB!!! now.. i miss moi footing... then didnt grab onto anything.. i looked and saw that pregnant woman is safe.. but i wasnt.. CB!! ntg to grab onto.. i hold onto the small rubbish bin that ppl throw tickets in de.. and so sway.. jus after the turn.. i didnt fall la.. but i broke tthat rubbish bin.. i see.. it was in moi hand.. sianSS.. the noise created was so loud.. all ppl at the bus.. looked at me.. got a few still luff.. then i jus take the bin.. fix it back.. luckily can fix.. fucking fucking slumspy shit asshole driver.. wish he go home.. his backside blood come out.. he still got cheek to smile at the mirror to see ppl alighting down from the bus stop.. assHOLE!! next time.. i see him drive the bus.. i stand beside him.. in front in front.. he turn like tat. i purposely.. punch his face.. then say accident.. ARghh!!! thats it la.. DAmn Dulan!!! ciaozZZ!!

hmmmm...ntg to do... using mummy's lap to blog... super sian.. today come school.. first two hours lesson fuck it up... didnt attend.. then next two hours lesson ENg MeC.. hmmm.. alright la.. suddenly i feel hot.. moi head feels a little giddy. Fucking hell.. hmmm.. now break.. don feel like eating.. sitting at squash court see ppl do skipping.. hmmm.. i feel so tired now.. fuck... sleep so much still so tired... argh...fuck.. i realise when i am totalli obessed by a song i am listening.. and i think only abt it.. i will have goosebumps... rather stupid.. thats it la.. ciaoxxx

haha.. i am not in the mood to blog la.. haha.. lazy.. but still in the high spirit la.. but if anyone needs help.. jus call for.. haha.. HONEY prawNS MAn and PotatO woMAN!!! haha.. we Will be there!!! ciaoZZ

hmmm.. today.. i realise i slacked damn lot today.. shit.. supposed to have class at 9.. woke up at 8.. shit.. cannot make it lor.. then meet mummy.. go school.. for EG2.. shit.. also late.. sat in class for fifteen mins.. then pon the lesson also.. shit.. then go west mall walk walk.. haha.. then.. too much of time to burn.. went to the CreATIve Art Corner.. do some painting on SNoopy!!! mine Suck in the colour conbination.. haha.. well.. URs HAd internal bleeding.. haha.. then go back sch.. also late for ENg meC lesson... luckily lecturer good mark us present.. hee hee.. then the last two hours of lesson.. fuck it.. pon again lor.. haha.. sehx sia.. lol.. hmmm.. go to causeway point walk walk.. from there take BUs back to jurong west to eat Ban Mian and meet FIfi.. lol.. hee hee.. then go temple and now i am home blogging.. hmmm.. anyway.. MUMMy... i am still alive and not dead.. not so fast okie.. fit fit fit de lor.. hee hee.. u cant win so fast.. haha.. thats it la.. gtg.. CIaozz

hee hee.. today.. school start at eight.. sian sian.. wake up lor.. hmmm.. and ya.. i opened moi mouth to talk to someone today at 10.. hmmm.. haha.. it was bunny mummy.. hmmm.. haha.. got burned by ah ben who spilled the chicken soup on moi stomach.. still feeling the burning sensation.. lol... like that then good ma.. after poly life.. i won forget ben.. sehx.. hmm.. then go crush lesson wit 1D1.. lol.. then mummy pom lesson.. the class she needed to attend all the face damn attitude... haha.. then went to eat.. hmmm.. meet kenneth.. lol.. his new hair cut.. looks neat... then meet woei luen.. hmm.. i was practically stoning for a while.. cos.. he talk the topics.. all i no link de.. then i diam diam.. lol.. haha.. then go stadium.. the air so shiok.. then i slept awhile.. hee hee.. then run lor.. i managed to click six rounds non stop.. then.. hee hee.. then.. another three.. lol.. hmmm.. not bad la.. hmmm.. then.. having some back ache now.. but guess it will be okie tmr.. hopefully.. hee hee.. hmmm.. alright la.. anyway.. i have got the book i ordered online.. hee hee.. BELIEVE IN ME!! lol.. hee hee.. alright.. gtg la.. ciaozz!!

hmmm.. HAHa.. happy birthday to You happy birthday to You!!!! happy birthday To anGie and Fifi.. haha.. HAppy birthday to U!!! both also.. seventeen liao.. hee hee.. hmmm.. anyway.. today.. it was quite fun.. haha.. Realise Moi CATS teacher couldnt talk chinese well.. she pronounce moi fren's name wrongly for like six seven times.. haha.. too bad.. hmmm.. then Moi SW.. hmmm... MR Gopi Retnam.. he is fun la.. jus so good. haha.. he is full of jokes.. hee hee... after so long was under the sun sweating.. hee hee.. hmmm... then.. I guess MOI bunny mummy.. hmmm.. had fun as well.. jus hope her hand don ache too much tmr.. hmmm.. haha.. ANbae.. hee hee.. u did well in conquering singing that song well.. u realli put in effort ba.. hmmm.. congrats.. at least three quarter of the song is done.. hee hee.. hmmm.. i am kinda happy while in the bus for that few minutes.. when u woke up.. to give way to the uncle who was holding onto the baby.. b4.. u walk to the back.. i will realli treasure that mins.. hope it will happen again.. hmmm.. anyway.. i was shocked and paranoid.. if u reach home already.. since i didnt get ur sms when i wanted it.. hmmm.. freaked me out.. hmmm.. i took a bus back to ur house.. hee hee.. but jus from two stops away from ur house.. i got to hear from U.. ur laughter calmed me down.. haha... it was not ur fault anyway.. lol... then i slowly took bus back home.. hee hee.. anyway.. MAN U WON CHELSEA!!! HAHA!!! WANTED THE WIN BADLY!! SO HAPPY!! hee hee.. and ya.. all the best to those taking O levels.. today was the start!!! all the Best to MOi BROTHERs.. SISters.. FREns.. thats abt it.. ciaozz!!!

HEy.. THIS is FOR U!!


All through my wandering yearsI always said I was biding my timeBut alone in the dark I'd face my fearsThat no other heart would come to mineAt first when you found meIt took me a while 'til I realizedWhy I felt weak when you were around meWhy I couldn't speak when I looked in your eyes


Chorus:
All this time I've been searchingUntil you, I was lost in my dreamsAnd I never knew that love could feel like heavenWatching over meOh wherever you goInvisible hands reach over the milesFor every wish you make to the starsThere's one silent kiss I send to the sky


Chorus
Everything has changedSince you came my way'Cause you put the colorIn a world of greyAnd you make the loveThat carries me away


Chorus
Feels like heavenWatching over me

haha.. mood was high.. mood is low... OMG!! moi mood can jus so low very fast.. anyway i jus got banged by a NissaN suNNy today.. guess.. it was moi fault.. cos.. i was thinking abt something else that i miss alot.. haix.. nvm.. luckily it wasnt that hard.. hmmm.. went to check up and doctor told me.. i was a lil twist at the wrist and a little pull on moi right shoulder.. shit.. haha.. luckily i had no bleeding.. hmmm.. but if the accident was serious.. i wish i was rather dead.. cos.. there is too much of suffering in this world i suppose.. i don wan to be a burden to anyone... LOve is Sweet Yet PAinfUL!! lol.. to some ppl yes.. some ppl no.. to me.. i am still confused.. but like i always tell moiself.. don be overdrown in sadness.. always try to get up from it.. and continue the run!! i guess.. the chase is still ON!!! i will run.. run.. run.. and hope i will get to U one day!!! lol!!! craPPing!!! Miss yA!!! CIAoxzz

haix.. don noe where to start.. if i could.. to vent moi moi wadever thats in me.. i would jus break the screen of this damn com.. haix.. arghh.. life is so not fair... wad did i do.. to be like this..? did i propsed to u even b4 i noe u loved me..? afterall.. i guess.. u may have a few reasons to make ur stand.. but to me.. i only have one reason.. I love u not cos i wan u to be in a relationship.. i wan u to live me wit me ForeveR!!! its a big word but i am serious... i noe.. everyone noes.. i realli love u Alot!!! esp norman!! hmmm.. i don noe what is going wrong!! i realli wan to work things out wit U!! cos... I noe.. i can accept ur character... moi feelings for U are as strong as roots to the tree.. hmmm.. baby i didnt mean to shout.. i wan me and U to work it oUT!! but.. i reealli don wan u to stress.. i guess.. it cant be forced.. but... I hope u will realise one day!! till the day I die.. i promise i won change!!! ANbeI!!! AN UyiRe NI taaN!!!

hmmm... haha.. today deepavali.. so guess.. happy deepavali to moiself.. hmmm... the first thing i did was to wake up.. bath.. pray and oh well.. wash the damn toilet.. hee hee.. then.. since it was moi dad'd birthday today as well.. give me gift lor.. i drew a card for moi mum.. hmmm.. then rot at home.. hmmm.. pray to GOd and ask for only ONE thing!! sorry cant be said out.. later won happen.. anyway.. after that.. went to jp meet ben hwang.. suprising. that i feel closer to him a bit more now.. then.. bought xing zhi a necklace.. then.. jai wen appear.. then walk walk see Pooh bear.. but Bleah!! cannot make it.. then go to coffee bean wan drink coffee.. then see so ex.. go to the coffee shop.. drink coffee.. lo... then see rojak.. hee hee.. guess.. after that crap and carp alot.. ben is a nice guy i suppose.. lol.. then.. came back home.. bath.. pray.. wear new clothes go moi auntie house.. arghH!! now moi stomach feel so upset cos too many good food i took.. ARGHH!! but today seem to be a little different.. haha.. jus don noe why.. but i wish governomet started school for us. next week.. this week one day go sch next day don need.. arghH!! anyway.. gtg.. sch atarts at 9 tmr.. guess i need to be there at 8.. yto buy books.. waste of money again.. but i need moi dipolma.. can anyone treat moi fren who is going crazy..?? ciaozzz

hmmm.. a few things happen in moi life these few days.. that it made me think.. whether.. i am realli wad i think i am.. hmmm... why do i have this thinking that.. everyone's problem i come to noe.. i treat that its moi problem.. and i try to solve it or console them even if they are not the ones who have told me.. guess.. this is wad ppl say say KPO!!! maybe i should jus be like a normal person.. and try to solve the problems only if one ask me for help.. hmmm.. i guess.. i will slowly have to think of changing this habit.. and.. also learn how to think thoroughly b4 i speak moi mind out.. cos.. i guess.. things that i say.. most of the time.. is of no use.. BULL SHIT!! i am not in very good mood.. maybe thinking too much pulls me down.. but i am not someone who fall easily.. no longer the weak me.. i guess.. i will jus pick up the mistakes.. correct them and move on.. many ppl.. don really noe.. wad i feel.. cos.. moi words are not strong enuff or best of all.. i use the wrong words to describe wrong things.. moi vocab sucks... in the end the opposite party get the wrong meaning!!! misunderstanding!! all i wan to do.. jus make sure.. U are always smiling.. cheerful!! and realise i am by ur side everytime!! well sadly.. most guys may say this to a gal. and after a few months.. or years.. fickle minded leave.. GUYS!! NEver say U love HEr if u NOE u will let go!! don let the gals in this world have suck damn wrong thinking abt other guys who are realli sincere!!! damn!!! everything can be healed!!! but wounds at heart!!!be it how long.. it will still be there!! cos.. Our heart Is like thAT!! i jus don noe!! all humans are different.. but.. pls.. try not to misuse the word LOVE or sincere!! haix!!! anyway, NEVER GIVE UP IF U NOE U CAN BE THERE THROUGH OUT HER LIFE ANF U STILL WANNA TRY!!! * MAY GOD BLESs ALL*