OMG!! its nine now.. and i am already awake from 8 plus... didnt noe wad time i fell asleep... i fucking feel guilty.. i was asleep while smsing her.. then i woke up at two.. she sms me two times.. FUCK!!! i am angry wit moiself.. haix.. she is surely ppissed.. u may not see this cos.. u noe i very long blog.. haha.. not teling u till u find out urself.. hmm.. i am realli sorry.. till now.. i am a lil guilty.. making u wait.. fuck.. i was realli trying to be awake.. even though i had tears in moi eyes and i was yawning several times.. i jus wanted to hear from U// yst whole day neva hear u well.. i was even sitting up on moi bed smsing u.. so that i won sleep.. fuck.. i am so depressed over moiself.. i don have the will power to do wad i wanna do.. i need to learn that in life to make sure.. i can be someone who can make it well in life.. efforts need to be put in.. now i online waiting for u.. don noe maybe u still sleeping.. hmmm... wan sms u.. feel a little guilty.. haix.. I am sorry!! anyway.. later i guess.. i won be out.. need paint moi room.. wednesday i will be out.. to chalet till friday.. guess b4 going to chalet i will blog again.. i am so weak!!! i need that Will power.. asking God to help is being lazy.. i wan to find it out moiself.. to be wad i wan to be.. hopefullyy.. i can.. TO bunny MUmmy, i am sorry.. take care guys... *A journey of a thousand miles begins wit a first crawl, NEVEr Give Up*