well.. first of all.. i am realli a lil sad cos.. i feel the day today went a little wasted.. i was sad and moody at the start of the day.. then was okie.. then now a lil down and weak.. i have to say one reason why i am like this is cos i am tired.. when i am tired i will be moody and sad and extra sensitive.

Went to west mall to study as muffin and I had test in the evening.. well. after that we head to school.. and still studied.. after that went to Maths class and was given that hour to do exam paper on ur own.. the last LECTURE given by Mdm Tan Ai Leng(Reali very motherly and naggy)..

After that head to TP lecture.. out of like 50 over students, less than 15 attend.. pathetic.. haha.. wasnt realli cocncentrating.. was slacking while muffin was copying Maths Assignment.. haha.. well.. after that went to Maths Tutorial.. Got Muffin's CCT marks.. oh well.. as expected.. lol.. then mug mug and even more mug.. till the exam...

Now after the exam i quite stress cos.. i didnt read the question properly and i jus missed 10 to 15 marks.. haiz.. shit la.. hopefully with lecturer's help and God's will i can pass the module.. hahah..

Muffin is sleepy again.. which means.. moody.. more tantrum thrown but as sweet as ever la... jus Kadalikeran her alot.. hahha.. well.. need i have to say how i will be when she will moody.. oh well... being too sensitive and too possessive is bad..

joanna and lionel were realli sweet la.. also saw another couple so sweet.. they walk the guy from behind hug the girl.. the girl lie on his hand.. haha.. Young couples are all so sweet nowadays.. Happy for them.. hope one day i will get to experience it again.. wit u of cos.. lol..

Being sad and moody in front of ur loved one only make things worse.. haha.. u have to learn how to take scoldings and mood swings.. jus take it by being patience u will be a better man.. thank her for making u one..?? LOL.. haha..

I don noe why i crappin so much.. cos.. i am bored.. and i have ntg to do while waiting for her from dance.. oh well..

Hope tmr will be a better day.. hope its all smiles.. Hugs.. craziness and NO SCOLDING!! hahah..

holiday start liao.. which means i will get to see my LOVED ONE lesser due to working and Chinese new year.. hope i don go mad.. hahaha.. OMG i am crapping like fuck.. shit la..

*I give you my heart cos nothing can compared in this world toOoO YoUUUU!!!*
* PASS ME WOR MUMMY!!!*
*Its already two years since he left all of us but he is still dearly missed by me*

well.. had a happy day wit muffin.. not the most but okie lor.. went to IMM after that to meet ying and shopped.. then after slacking we went home..

I feel like sth is running; flying inside my stomach.. hai.. not for a good reason la.. i am realli sorry if i have said anything.. but thanks for letting me explain everything... I realli feel odd la.. Well, if i haven made u angry a few weeks ago and did stick to my words i gave to u.. would we be as happy as before.?? i realli confused.. i felt very Na&*^%$ but i jus couldnt express myself.. cos i had no guts.. two i was scared i would be scolded and three.. mummy was tired.. i realli don noe why i am like this.. so complicated.. so idiotic.. so lame.. so stupid..

I hope u can read me at times..
* I miss smelling ur hair*
* I miss _________ ___ ______...*

* REALLI VERY COMPLICATED HEART; WISH FOR A DAY THINGS GO MY WAY*

I have never been this sad for the past one or two years in my whole life.. No smiles.. Communication breakdown.. Scoldings.. Misunderstandings.. Arugments.. Quarrels.. well.. wad ever it is.. U are realli very very very well deep treasured inside inside my heart da.. i will always love u more and more each day.. ur scoldings will be motivation for me to make me a better man.. I always feel down when u are moody and stuff and u noe.. i never gave up on myself to cheer u up.. even when u scold me saying i am irritating... i feel fucked up. but i get back to the main thing i wanna do.. cheer u up.. I wan u to be happy all the time..

*OH well, i may not be ur anything but for a fact i noe u are my everything*

* It seems we are falling but that doesnt mean a damn thing as long as we have a good understanding*


I LOVE YOU MY CHELLAM!!!

well.. nothing to do.. so i will jus blog about wad happen in my life today..

so bored.. i woke up very happily.. cos.. I am going to shopping wit my dear dear later and she can buy me food.. cos i am totally broke.. so went attend lessons and stuff.. Sadly, didnt eat breakfast and lunch due to finanical crisis. Then i went to meet my frens.. Then play boy and his gf were quarreling.. as usual. his fault.. and she was crying.. then i didnt noe anything.. so i jus went then told her not to cry.. *Cant take when girls cry* then a few of my frens were scolding him.. then suddenly one of my fren told playboy sth that shocked me..

He said," You everyday make her sad.. make her cry.. ntg to do ah... See Dinesh la.. Buy food for his girl.. Everytime with her.. treat her like the chicken take care of its unhatched egg.." in tamil..

I so shocked.. i was thinking.. Shit.. everyone looking at me lor.. WHA.. * evil eyes*.. Bad for the relationship.. ARGH.. and ya the evil thing realli strike.. I couldnt get to meet my Dear dear cos i had to go to temple for prayers.. and it was a very impt prayers.. well.. hopefully.. GOD will make things better and happier for me..

* LOve U MAny MAny*

I jus heard this song.. and i thought this song was realli nice.. I dedicated this song to my Dear loved one.. Careless she say its nice or not.. i think this song realli has alot of meanings.

Never Wanna Make You Cry!!

never wanna make u cry never wanna make those tears, come to your eyes [verse 1]

I know it's been hard between us Don't know who you can trust But girl it's me cuz what we had was more than just luss It seems that we always fallin' But that don't mean a damn thing Just as long as we always have an understanding [Bridge]

So put all of your bettings on the side Cuz i'm gonna take you on a ride And forget your pride I never want to hurt you lady So just come and hold me honey [chorus]

I wanna make you mine, all the time Thats no lie (thats no lie) I wanna make you mine, all the time Thats no lie.....Aw girl Never Wanna Make U Cry Never wanna make those tears, come to your eyes [verse 2]

You think that i really don't love you That could never be true Cuz no matter what i'll always be real to you So tell me what i layed on my line Without you i'm ready to die Cuz it's so hard for a man who expresses true love [Bridge]

So put all of your bettings on the side Cuz i'm gonna take you on a ride And forget your pride I never want to hurt you lady So just come and hold me honey [Chorus x2]

I wanna make you mine, all the time Thats no lie (thats no lie) I wanna make you mine, all the time Thats no lie.....Aw girl Never Wanna Make U Cry Never wanna make those tears, come to your eyes

* I am writing this entry cos my mouth jus cant open to talk;so i write*

Jus came back home after sending muffin to work. Feeling very bored and since its raining, i am cold too.. Whatever i am feeling at heart cant be expressed in words. Whereas whatever i write doesnt truly expressed wad i feel in my heart.. Sometimes i wonder if i could express my heart to u in words exactly to you.. will it be better.?? Or will you jus think i am stupid or find me plainly boring saying the same things over and over again..

Well.. i have never ever come across a girl like u in my life.. That makes you specially special, and difficult for me to read. But i am doing wad i can or maybe more than wad i can.. putting in extra effort to understand u, ur words, ur actions.. Wad u wan at wad time.. Wad i should do and should not do when for an example, when u are quiet.. moody.. I am still learning how to read you.. I wan to be the picture perfect guy for you.. I wan to be the only guy who is on ur mind al the time. The guy when u think of sets a smile on ur face..

I am realli happy in getting to know you and life has never been regretful. It has always been beautiful when you are around me.. But is it the same for u..?? I wonder..?? I noe i do give my words to you and don live up to it making decisions and am happy when u forget and forgive me for my wrong doings.. but i noe its still up ur head.. I am not going to won do this or won do that anymore bla bla bla.. i tink putting it into actions will make things better.. We have gone thru all sort of shit and no matter wad i will still back u up..

Hope right now.. you are spending time wit sin ying.. hope when u are free when no one is around you do think of me.. Cos i am missing you alot.. Esp ur smiles.. Ur words( i didnt get to hear u properly these few days..

*Words from my heart will always be unwritten..*
* I hope you are okie wit this entry*

MY LAPPY is FREAKING SLOW due to some CHINESE SHIT VIRUS ATTACK!!!
i am gonna reformat my C' drive tomorrow..

Jus got back all my common test results.. actually all alos did badly.. but jus that all pass except for TP.. hmmm.. most fifty plus TP forty plus.. hahah.. last minute revision.. cant expect much.. Had a blast last sunday.. Sin ying came over to the shop as well as Farm(the CHEESE lover).. Had pizza hut for dinner and i was so so full i felt i was a balloon.. hmm.. and SY and Mummy were trying to dance Cha Cha.. and so i tried to show it to them.. i was total embarassing.. cos.. both of them laugh their ass off.. they told me i did fencing instead of Cha Cha..

Debarrment period is over.. Didnt got debarred for anything this semester.. hmmm.. Hope ppl who got debarred.. their debarrment will be lifted and all will be able to write the exam and pass..

My fone, W550i is currently in hospital due to some LCD problem.. when i have the money i will repair.. for now i am using Mr. Lousy Lame Deaf (8250).. cant even hear wad ppl are saying at times.. =(

Oh and i almost forgot.. I went to See Mummy and Xing yi dance today.. hahaha.. so cool.. i have to admit Jazz dance is more difficult to learn compared to hip hop.. Jazz dance need to focus alot and coordinate all the steps and the timing must be seconds prefect.. It was worth watching them practice cos i jus spend 1 hour doing so and i didnt even notice time has flew so fast..
To Xing yi: Learn how to see and dance la backside
To Muffin: Good Job!! =)

i think thats about it.. i will blog soon enuff..
*4 Weeks to exams*
*Close distance; yet i miss u much!!*(try to be less irritated pls)
*Some things are easier said than done!!!*